I wrote in a recent ‘Wisdom with Wes’ column about sticking to a certain few creative outlets, because we don’t want to burn ourselves out or scatter ourselves trying to work hard at all of them.
We can make the few we pursue better if we stick with them, work hard and express plenty of patience, but like I said in the column, we can’t really develop ten different creative outlets. We can still enjoy the things we aren’t great at – we just don’t want to make them a priority.
I’ve reached a point in life where I’m asking myself what I really want to do; what I want to be known for. I’m not trying to be egotistical, but I want to decide, once and for all, what creative paths I want to stick with. I can pour myself into them once I know for sure, and I think writing, music and intuitively communicating are the best things for me to pursue.
I recently hit a crisis of faith with music (or, more specifically, singing), because I felt like I was spending too much time and energy pursuing it that I could be using to develop the blog and these articles.
I’ve split my time each day between blogging, writing and music (not to mention being a parent, which most of you probably know is time-consuming), and I’ve worried that I haven’t developed the singing enough compared to the time and energy I’ve put into it.
After exploring these feelings, I started to understand that the real reason I was wanting to quit altogether wasn’t because I haven’t developed it enough; it was because I was afraid of the vulnerability that comes with singing, which is something that you have to be at least a little good at to really enjoy or uplift others with.
We don’t have to feel it or give into it, but singing and playing music can come with a pressure to be good, especially if we want to play in front of people. I almost gave in to that vulnerability by telling myself I’d all-out quit music, but when it comes down to it, singing and music are in my blood.
They’re inescapable, and even if I tried, I couldn’t stay away from them. It’s been hard for me to accept that they’re important parts of my life and since they mean so much to me, I can’t escape them – even if an escape meant I could put more time and energy into the blog.
The blog and these articles will continue to be developed no matter what, because I’m learning about the value of hard work and the idea that we can accomplish a lot, in multiple fields, if we stay busy and stay dedicated while still giving ourselves time to rest every now and then.
I can continue to develop these articles, the blog and music simultaneously, and I just have to accept that it’s a path that’ll require me to work very, very hard.
It’ll ensure I keep myself busy, and being stagnant at any time (beyond the normal resting times we all require) will pose grave consequences to the development of either three creative routes – writing/blogging, music and intuitive communication.
As hard as it might be (and as much vulnerability as it might require), I’ll have to accept that my purpose right now is to develop these three creative outlets and this requires me to work a little harder than I might be comfortable with at times.
Even if I have a lot of work to do, I can’t abandon music or singing. It’s hard to explain, but music has somehow inserted itself into my life and I’ve just been along for the ride. Some musicians will tell you that the music seemed to ‘pick them’, and that’s the best way to describe the feeling.
“Passion is one great force that unleashes creativity, because if you’re passionate about something, then you’re more willing to take risks.” – Yo-Yo Ma
Every time I think about setting music aside and focusing more on the blog and writing articles, something within brings me back to it. I can’t shake this growing passion, and an increasing part of me doesn’t want to. I’ve known for a while that music is spiritual, but there’s something even deeper to it.
It’s almost like it’s become my spiritual lifeblood.
Like writing, it’s something I require to keep my essence intact; to keep me aligned with the Christ within. Any musician wants their art to be ‘good’, but it’s not even about being good or impressing others; it’s about using this sacred vibration of sound to uplift ourselves and connect with the spirit in an amazing way.
Depending on how you play it, music is almost cosmic. It’s definitely a form of meditation, and a lot of people think it’s one of the best natural highs we can have. We don’t need anything mind-altering to get high off of music, because it alters our consciousness for the better all by itself.
It’s more than something I want to uplift others with – it’s something I require to stay aligned and uplifted myself. It’s an uplifting spiritual aid that can keep us connected with that deeper aspect of ourselves that otherwise goes unnoticed.
The same can be said with writing, but since the two are different, they get us to that space in different ways. I like to use writing to get there because of how the words flow on and on, as if by magic, and even when the flow’s blocked, all it takes is a little patience and perseverance to get it going again.
Writing is fun, and music’s fun in a different way. Writing uses our mental, almost telepathic powers of observation and self-expression to continuously flow, and music uses sound, which is important to the creation and sustainment of our reality (and the realities beyond), to keep us in touch with the essence of our consciousness.
It’s an important connection to maintain, and music produces a very similar effect to meditation in keeping us connected.
Even if the talent isn’t where I want it to be yet, I have to continue pursuing it for my own sake. It has more to do with staying aligned within than anything else, and even if it requires me to divide my time between it and writing, it’s rooted into me and I’ll have to learn to flow with it.
Generally, I’m feeling some fresh personal changes on the horizon. I’ve been led to make a lot of personal changes in the past couple years, which relate to my creativity, my spirituality and the things I put into my body (among other things), and I think they’re going to continue.
I could write a whole other article about my readiness to live a new way of life; an uplifted, consistently active life that’s as productive as it is enjoyable. I’m ready to be more outgoing and more spiritually aware than ever before, and overcoming any challenges or obstacles along the way will make the journey more fulfilling and worthwhile.
Maybe some of you are exploring your creativity in a similar way, and hopefully, this has helped you one way or another. These articles would be pointless if I wrote about my path for the sheer sake of talking about myself, and the hope is always for them to help some of you in some way.
We’re all unique and we’re all going through different trials and challenges, but our lives all run along a common thread of experience and when we realize this, we can help each other through the most difficult aspects of our spiritual evolution.
I hope I’ve been able to help some of you, and I still have plenty more inner searching to do myself. We’ll all get where we’re meant to be regardless of how we arrive, so let’s enjoy the journey and remember not to take life too seriously.
“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age.” – Sophia Loren
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